Monday, July 14, 2014
Duration: 10 minutes
Location: Home, on pillow on the floor, against the wall. By myself.
I sink in slowly. My hips are sore from sitting in the cross legged position. I need to stretch out today, I say in my head. I am tight and I wonder why. (After the meditation I realize its because of my run from yesterday). I say to myself, GOD come closer to me. I want you closer. I repeat this in my head several times as I do my best to focus on just the breathing. Breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out. I definitely want that deep nourishment from this session today and am looking for it. That satisfying fulfillment on a spiritual level. The level that only I and my creator can give to me through my efforts of getting in touch and his/her efforts through receiving my call and then returning the favor. The favor being the guidance needed to live my life the best way possible and to live according to what I was meant to do with the gifts I’ve been given. “I want to read Mind of God,” I say. These aren’t my thoughts though, so I’ll read it afterwards so I won’t confuse them with my own. I want to get in touch with mine first before I become clouded with the thoughts and opinions of another.
My baby and I are coming together as one. We have broken each other down to the core and I feel at this point we are starting to grow together from the same spot. Our experiences together are just ours.
Tuesday, July 2, 2014
Duration: 15 minutes
Today’s meditation didn’t feel like it went that deep. It was fast though. Initially in the beginning it felt slow and I opened my eyes due to boredom. But then I closed them again and started to focus on my breath and before I knew it the Chimes alarm was going off. I asked myself what tape was playing in the background that I wasn’t aware of. I always like to be aware of this because it helps me in my decision making. By bringing this information to the forefront of my mind I can actively make decisions on it. One thing that came to mind was my girlfriend’s priority list. This list is important for her to create and she keeps avoiding it like the plague. It bothers me. I realized that today because of my meditation. I also asked to get closer to GOD but that thought quickly faded after I initiated it.
Friday, June 27, 2014
Duration: 15 minutes
Location: shopping plaza parking lot curb, under tree
Today’s meditation was tough. I couldn’t focus because I was distracted. Distracted by the fitness orientation I needed to set up with my aunt on either Monday or Tuesday. I wanted to get closer to GOD too. I said a prayer for him to come closer and for Priya and I to find peace not only within ourselves, but with each other. Not in a way that says we live in turmoil on a regular basis, but in a way to work ourselves through the emotional strife of the moment into a place of serenity. I needed to get in touch with him so I could better be in tune with myself as well.
In a way I felt like today’s session wasn’t about getting in tune with myself though because I was already very aware of what I needed to do to move forward and how to go about it. My focus was there and I needed to start re-reading my NASM book to gain a deeper understanding on the body. I’m forgetting details and I can see it during my fitness orientations. My clients don’t notice, but I do and that little detail can be the difference between a sale and no sale.
I think today’s session was more about pushing through when I find ways to not do something by doing things less important than what’s on the top of my priority list. The fifteen minutes was long and I even opened my eyes frustrated 7 minutes into it. Frustrated that I wasn’t delving deep enough in such a quick fashion like I had been doing over the last week. Today was different. It was hard for the first time. My patience had warn thin. I had things to do and I didn’t want to take the time for it. I think holding to this even when I didn’t want to was an action that helped me improve on my follow through. This in and of itself is a victory.
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Duration: 20 minutes
I love how these meditations get me focused. I have so much energy on a regular basis and I do need to get better at focusing it. Not letting the energy dissipate into every which direction, but to harness it in such a way where I can artfully direct it towards achieving my goals.
Today I really wanted to get in touch with my being. One of the thoughts I had in my mind was that I wanted to “Find God.” I know that he’s real and I have felt his presence before, but as I was going through my mind images would pop up and I would want to go behind the curtain and see what was behind that thought. As I delved deeper I saw the images of the things I had exposed myself too this morning; Joe Montana interview where he was talking to NFL access about when he retired and other things. I remembered Tony Robbin’s saying from a video that his mentor Jim Rohn told him, “Guard your mind.” And as this thought crossed my head I saw everything that I saw on the computer this morning and how the images were just floating around in my mind. I saw how the article from getrichslowly.org that I read this morning on the scarcity mindset was influencing my thought on thinking long term. It addresses complexities no doubt, but it was such a simply written article that I enjoyed reading. It got me thinking how easily my mind absorbs things. It’s amazing how quickly I can do it. I don’t expect images to capture my mind so quickly and constantly float around the way they do.
I’ve been listening a lot to Tony Robbins lately because its very applicable to what I do. In helping others clean up there habits I undoubtedly have started to look at mine. I’ve been seeing areas that I lack in follow through. I’ve also been able to see where my strengths are.