Wednesday, July 9, 2014
6:34 a.m.
Duration: 15 minutes
Location: Gym hardwood floor, against mirror in the group classroom
Today’s session was present. At one point I felt a wave ooze over the top of my brain as I sank deeper into the meditation. As this happened, it felt as though a hand was sifting through the middle of my hair, parting it for me. I heard the noises of the people doing their exercises next to me. The sound of a machine weight slamming down as someone releases the cable quickly exhausted from fatigue; at least that’s what I suspect. “Man, that weight slamming down was loud, it startled me,” I thought to myself. The people doing exercises in the same room as me feel like they’re right up on me. They aren’t, but I can’t help noticing my ear sensitivity picking up every little sound as I do my meditation longer.
One thing I notice about my meditations is how present I become. As I work through my thoughts that could be a mix of what happened yesterday or what I currently listened to on the radio that morning before I started meditating, they start to dissipate. I don’t know where they go, it’s as if they dissipate into thin air. It’s as if whatever worries I had going on the day before or that morning are worked through and I’m now completely present to deal with what’s in front of me from that session on. It’s interesting.