Wednesday, June 25, 2014
8:52 a.m. to 9:02 a.m., and 9:14 a.m. to 9:25 a.m.
Duration: 21 minutes
Is it possible that the mind transfers thoughts back and forth unconsciously? Can I be so sensitive to someone else’s needs or insecurities that I pick them up without even realizing it? This is the thought that came to mind this morning as I was meditating and realizing that a lot that was operating inside of me was Priya’s jealousy episode this morning. I had thoughts of my own this morning, but what she said was definitely on my mind. I wanted to push through those thoughts and get in touch with my own, but it wasn’t happening that easily. The thoughts of what we had spoken about this morning floated along in my head like a cloud in the sky. Which bring me to another question, “Are thoughts actual physical manifestations?” Is there a physicalness to them or is my imagination simply just something that I can see but not touch? It’s tough to say. The mind can be such a tricky thing. I wanted to do my meditation longer than the ten minutes I did it this morning. I felt like I was really just getting into it.
I meditated for another 10 minutes and loved it. I was getting more in tune with myself and sifting through the thoughts of what I need to do today. I was thinking about Brianne waving to me when I was working out with a prospective new client. I was thinking about my prospective client saying no she couldn’t afford training right now due to financial constraints. I remember her sitting there looking at the screen debating how to pay for the training and then me just sitting there in silence waiting for her to make a decision. I remember Tony and I sitting down talking at the desk and seeing him take a drink of water from his huge crystal geyser plastic container. I remember thinking, “That thing is massive.” It was a good session today and I’m looking forward to the next one. It feels like every time I’ve done some meditation since Sunday the 15th, I’ve taken something from it. Becoming more aware is what I took from today. I’m glad to start this ritual.